You won’t remember
but I’ll never forget
when I greeted you with
a thousand hellos
and held you to my chest
grateful, relieved.
You won’t remember
but I’ll never forget
drawing you in close
in the darkest hours of each day.
Rocking you.
Streams of exhaustion
gratitude
doubt
anxiety
Unfathomable love
pouring down my face and
dripping onto yours.
I buried countless kisses
into the folds of your neck
and on your squishy cheeks.
I’d press my face to yours
and breathe in
you.
You won’t remember
but I’ll never forget
that one curl on top of your head,
your dimpled knuckles
and flat, doughy feet.
How I’d scoop you up
every time our song came on
and we would dance.
Then when you grew and you heard
that familiar tune and
abandon everything for “up mama!”
I will never forget.
I’ll never forget
those warm, sticky days
sitting in the shade and your tiny pool.
Or how you loved peaches.
Or how you would slide down the stairs.
Waiting for your daddy by the pond
Full of fuzzy ducklings.
O, sweet child…
You’ll never remember,
the way you would play with my rings for comfort each day, each night.
Or how we would snuggle each night, cozy in your little bed
You won’t.
Not in your mind.
But, I hope,
You’ll feel a tug at your soul
When I hold you close or when you hear
those few notes.
I hope what are memories for me,
vivid and etched into my heart,
are for you
deep roots of
familiarity, grounding you to
the absolute assurance that
You are loved.
Absolutely stunning!!!! You are an amazing writer who so eloquently captures seemingly indescribable emotions. Your babies are beyond blessed to have such a wonderful, loving, devoted mother. Hugs to all of you!!!
You are pure sugar, Elizabeth! I’m glad to have the example of mamas like you in my life! Hope you all are well. We miss you guys!!
Josh just told me his dream is to get a camper/RV and travel the country and you guys are FOR SURE on the list of people to visit. He says he hopes you’re ok with us parking an RV in your yard 🤣